So sitting here just trying to think, man my head hurts... then look up and its 1:01... lol ... LOL lol = 101 bbbaahahahaHAHA

was writting away talking to afew friends online, lol, well, neighbors, family, friends, etc and suddenly i thought about this blog..and looked at the time, bam 11:55, ok ... time to write more down i guess. LOL. say la vi, sai, la va,sae jue ve

thats all i had to say ... left this open but nothing more for now

22~22

As I opened a new blog post I realized that 22, my age, and favorite number, is a power number and also that the number on my sons shirt is a 22 too! lol <3

Well lets start with some background before I get too into my 'NOW' moments, as I have had many many many of these. First off, I was born in the mountains in Washington and grew up with little to almost no 'modern' technology. We did not have a fridge & freezer, no microwave, no air conditioning... We didnt even have indoor plumbing and electricity...This may sound extreme to some people, but at the time I knew it was the right place for me and I did not crave any of the city life. I enjoyed it, at the neighbors, or on an occasional trip to town- but it was not a part of my everyday life. Plants, Animals, Candles or lamps for light, Wood stove for heat, the natural aroma of forest & flowers, THIS is what my life on a daily basis consisted of. And I loved it. I miss it now. But it is the memories I miss and not the actual being there. The beauty of the peace and tranquility, it was simply put *Amazing*...

While the natural beauty and internal questions did make some sense, I was so confused as to WHY I was growing up in a home where I was continuously takin advantage of and hurt by so called "family friends" and then nothing happening as if it was suppose to be that way. Well, it was. I simply didnt know it then.

While I know now what I went through has more meaning than just any 'past life karma' it was me, incarnating into this body at the time I planned and being put into betrayal and fear and anxiety. I was testing my own strength, testing my knowledge, and pushing myself to grow.

I can now look back and understand alittle better as to why I went through so much. I know I arranged it all long before coming here in this incarnation, so I really have no one to blame for any of my past, and while I would say 'except myself' that isnt entirely true either, because there is a certain balance to what we choose, yes we have free will, we can override what we 'can' do with what we 'want' to do, but it is not always in our best interest. comfortable is easy, it is the uncomfortable that people are fearful of and this is why we must push ourselves to the boundaries of comfort, stepping into the uncomfortable areas in our life to really reflect... Look back... See... Remember.. Can you?!?!?

That is all for now... I may post more later, or simply add to this one.

Well I must say that it was a very interesting night lastnight with so many synchronistic things occuring. The 2's the 3's... showing up everywhere! I am not sure what all to write this morning as I really am not very awake rightnow. I have had a 2hr nap but otherwise have not slept, though I do not feel 'required' to sleep?.. I do have insomnia however I think it is just a more natural tap the real ammount of sleep I personally need as I have always been naturally 'attuned' with much, even though I am usually unaware at the time.

I really do dislike allergies. I am so tired of Dust and itchy dry eyes and watering eyes & ..etc etc...

just had to post that i was reading about the 444 and read a bumper sticker that said its 4:44 do you know where your angels are, and bam looked at the clock it was 4:44!!! woot woot!

Just have to say that I am SO thrilled to be able to do this. Thank you Archangel Micheal, for helping for loving for just being here with me now and always. I know I have your love and light at my side for assistance whenever I need to call upon you. There are so many in my life I do not know how to tell of this, Love, and Light, i wish to share it with them but I cannot remember the words to express it to them- to allow them to understand what i can feel so deeply and i know without a doubt deep within my soul without ever having to have read any of this before i know it, i know i know it, and i know you are aware that i know i am knowing. I also know that did not confuse either of us but gave us a slight chuckle. Well, atleast me, but I think it safe to say you have a pretty well rounded sense of humor. I wish to here you, clearly, and remember. I know I can. I just need help tuning in. I aught to set the electrical equipment down and try to rest now, I know my day ahead will be filled with synchronicity to keep me busy >P thank you BTW it does make for a more fun day, and I surely do enjoy the 'fun' of noticing them, the rush of vibrations :P

well here goes something new. I never thought I would start my own blog but at this moment that is what I am exactly doing. It is odd. I really should go to bed instead but alas, I cannot. so here I sit. Writting. Editting. Correcting. Out of habit. Suppose I will write in the morning but wanted to start this off with a good synchronistic Funny haha moment so.............


Hmmm well i started that at 4:11am, then posted it at 4:14am, and while looking at the schedule of when it was posted realized it was at 4:14 on 06/02/2012 and That all adds up to 22 which is how old I am.

I really aught to be sleeping.