this is not the only part of the blog i have many other messages now too, i am writting them on facebook and will copy and paste them when complete and ready to turn this blog public (with the names changed and the approval of all parties involved. yes.) i cannot put all this in one place for not one can understand all at once it is the slow realization that things are the now the present the gift of life. hmm write more later
*namaste*

btw S&J, J&J, S&B all ya"ll even you AW & SW, i love you all and momma says hello. *momma**Sue**Susan Hart. When i have complete permission from all parties i will give the name analysis chart to decipher names. for now initials of first and some first and last names will be used in ley way of any nicknames or names from the chart, those who wish to not be identified can be known as 'anonymous' or unknown, or give a chosen nickname that i will use for each time i reference them. but this is my story and i will tell it. AB will back me up, so will SS, cause momma said so. and i trust momma.

i was going to post a quick few sentences to touch bases on what i have been trying to speak verbally for over a week. i have changed. life is a continuation of Divine choice, thought, energy, Love. I AM.

i feel the need to ellaborate on my connection with Love, i have always been a very loving being and even as a baby in human form i was put into situations where i was (from a third demensional view) abused and takin advantage of sexually and faced with severe pain and suffering emotionally, mentally physically and psychologically, tho not spiritually.

Let me explain further. One. we can all beleive in our own interpretation of One, corret?

... Ask yourself DO you have some form of a recollection of what 'one' means? if you think of the numberical language 'digit' of 1... then yes you beleive in Oneness. this is as simple as i can explain it.

to continue, "insert music quote 'one is the loneliness number that you'll ever see' " .................. (first time i have done that but the line came across as the music in my mind as i wrote it, i will in the future further explain how i have connected all things, knowingly but subconciously i have remembered it and not on a concious 3rd world view- for it does not exist here... **note i am SERIOUSLY coming up with this as i write. i have always questioned things both big an small when noticing patterns and i have at times just wrote EVERTHING off but after 22 years and synchronicities getting so close, down to the second.. i must start writting for i have waited long enough.***  ................on eis the loneliest number youll ever see because one is what you 'see' physically you see things as one individually and spiritually you see things as ONE because YOU ARE ONE. this adds to 22. let me further explain 22. 11 1+1 is a doorway it creates 2 unity, duality-polarity if you will. north and south "pole", up & down, left & right, mom & dad, sister & brother, male & female, "in"dividual, 'in' divide' dual' ONE individual is one. ive never looked that up but with all ive recently only had the timing to look at i must haste and make waste no more for namaste is waiting. 22 it is time. 1 one. 1 + one = 2 dual, 22 the entrance into the other realms. master numbers if you choose to call them. i would like to bet there is a 'theory' recorded somewhere by someone even if they were considered by mainstream terms as 'crazy' i am sure they recorded the 'in di vid ual'  ohhh in, one- di- 4 for some reason i dont know 4s connection yet but the 'pattern' is that, a pattern, the way it should be, how we choose 2,4,6, we go 2 by 2, noahs ark refference, light & dark, god goddess, positive negative, ) (sorry i mustnt not document anymore this may seem gargled but anyone interested will know what they are reading for they are ready to understand it, if you read this and can follow you MUST PAY ATTENTION please i beg of you, i beg of I, I beg of US, of ONE< we must keep focused on what WE WANT for if you want pain and suffering think of a future where you are unhappy nothing works and you dont get anywhere, then THIS is what YOU will experience...

but I am choosing to see to experience to beleive the better. We all beleive something better CAN be acheived it is simply asking if we CHOOSE we want it NOW, there is no future you do not create yourself and there is no reason to dwell on the past unless you want there to be, if you think of your past it is because you have some lessons to realize. depression, anger, fear, you have something you have learned that you must recognize to continue. do not deny this. or do. it is your choice. our choice. but you will see that what you think is soon what is, and you must harness what you want by focusing on it, this WILL BE HARD for from a physical plane 3rd demensional view it is the emotions you feel, hurt, pain, anger, sadness, greif, loss, guilt, shame, dissappointment- they are what what hold you here and keep you from ascending with us, those ready, this time is NOW. you know who you are. but will you accept it or deny it. will you choose to experience love and light or dark fears? ...there is but two emotions LOVE and FEAR. we each experience what we want that is why GOD WILL NEVER GIVE YOU MORE THAN GODKNOWS YOU CAN HANDLE, you set yourself up to have this experience rightnow, how do you feel? or rather  ..''and now tell us, prey, how does this make you feel?"... flash of anger at that phrase? no?... you can accept or deny it, all words spark both LOVE and FEAR, for it is ONLY our perception of the experience as good or bad. if it is good, it is LOVE, if it is bad, IT is fear, but really, it is us, we are LOVE we are FEAR we are the CREATOR. again, individual. ONE.

**intercept, ok i will not stop i will continue**

the past is a simulation of our thoughts as played out in the NOW and stored in our vast Akashic Records. it is the 'part' of our library we call conciousness that we can recall at will. well in truth we can recall it all at will but we doubt our will, we fear the -no not unknown, i agree- the un'accepted' as it is not view as 'good' again release all polarities. this is hard and i still am not sure how i can sit here and write that while my earliest memory was of being held at knifepoint while being sexually molested in front of 2 siblings whom i am sure have no recollection (by imediate recall) of this event, but with focus, "hyme' resonates a certain distaste within you, within us, does it not? hmm hold that you do not know the 'moment' i am speaking of but somehow you know this 'time' i am speaking of is not in the norms of what is defined as 'good' or 'ok' to happen to a young girl of under age 4, correct?... knifepoint, molestation, sibling audience... you feel disgusted do you not? but yet i was that girl, ---------------STOP EDITING ***ok sorr- i will not apoligize for being ME> *namaste*-------- excuse me for that brief intermission i was letting my mind wander, lol, to get back to business... i am. I AM that little girl who was forced to remain silent, who while i felt guilty of literally being intears while telling my mother no that no man had sexually hurt me, the ones who got caught, to this day, the only ones are the ones who have been so ridden with guilt they have accepted and released the knowledge of their own free will and let themselves be caught. the rest are mostly gone from the vessel they used to teach me what i needed to understand. thank you to all who endured i am sure that my pangs of looks innocently staring at you wondering why you wanted to hurt me as it is only within this one week, maybe one month, (11, hmm, 1+1, i cannot decipher if it was within the last week or month i have not been soul searching thus way for more than a month so within the 2' dual boundaries ) this must have been difficult to inflict such pain and it is no wonder you almost all were already old enough 'in human age' and with enough 'good karmic trust' built up to even you out before your departure from physical realm, tho i am sure some of you had to remain in teh 3rd world and reincarnate to continue to resolve the karmic debt created by this lesson of 'life' i am leanring from looking back in retrospect on the days where i felt the most pain and suffering. it was to cross the threshold by the 'time' I was expected to, which again i imposed-I imposed this timeline because I knew it was attainable and that there was no 'time' to be wasted, I chose the quickest way to spiritual awakening and fulfillment I could to be here to help Gaia. thank you. for helping me.

i have again run amuck and continued my explaination further into other areas of converse that i was attempting to refrain from, then again i suppose by choosing attempting it is the 'excuse' i need to blame myself for writting more and have now added more, tho this i do feel needs explaining as others are doing the same and need my guidance, so - YOU- dear soul spark, forgive me, forgive us, for we have trailed off again.

it is not the time to just 'read' and skim' the contents of this, you ahve done this too long. focus. the days of 'loitering' in the 3rd demension are over for you, they have passed into your past and you need to AWAKEN. you KNOW you have a purpose, you KNOW you WANT peace love happiness unity getting along, caring, sharing, all is as it should be, correct? so focus on it, if you can do nothing else, do not try to 'let go' of anything, the guilt the shame the low self esteeem anythin gyou feel might hinder you, yes you may RELEASE it but do not try to focus on it, simply write anything you want to rlease down, physically write on paper any way on any paper you want then burn it. as you light and watch the paper burn think of what you DO want, DO NOT i repeat DO NOT think of 'i need to stop thinking of this stuff i release this stuff & then realize the paper is burnt up, do not hesitate, as soon as it lights, or even start a picture in your mind before hand and then simply bring the 'feeling' of what you want into the moment when you see the flame touch the paper, flame + paper = burning --think of the way you want others to get along, happily talking chatting friendly the love the unity the ONEness of the whole and yet the INDIVIDUAL unique personality of us each, the feeling, liken the vibrations of the love you feel to that of the orgasm you acheive when making passionate love to someone, not sex, but sacred bond influenced love - you may or may not have experienced this, if you are unsure, think of the tingling feeling you get when you are about to climax during 'sex' as you know it, if you are a virgin, think of the sensation if you like when people play with your hair, does your mother run her fingers through your hair as if to 'calm' your mind? it is the touch. the sense. it is the physical. the aspect of 'love' is the vibration that we feel. high vibrations feel warm, like the sun, they can heat you and make you uncomfrtable if you are not used to the vibrations (so be aware to be 'concious' when you open this gateway or portal into the knowledge you will uncover). where low vibrations feel cold, like ice. (polar oppposites, see the duality there?...again 2) but yet 1 because you cannot have one without the other, hot-sun-heat-water is liquid, ice-cold-hard, but you cannot have the ice without first water to be able to make it, have you heard the expression 'scared stiff' FEAR is the ICE of love. love is warm and inviting it is nurturing and caring where FEAR is doubt of itself. of ourself. of yourself. of MYself. ONE>

i must end this as my physical vessel hurts and i have earthly duties still that require attention (family work friends, you cannot just 'leave' everything you know, it is a shift, a transition, you must choose to change --- be the change you wish to see in the world--- i will write again later.

to post my original thought, i will say it this way, i love all the same. no ONE individual (in-divide-dual ) of US is more or less important than the other. sexuality is that of our 'likeness' to the 'godself', we are differents 'sex' male + female, but the expression is based on that our peception of 'sexuality' is based on 'sex' male or female and the expresssin of each through love... that is the best deffinition at this time i can comprise. however i can ellaborate more. we express ourselves by our sexuality through homosexual, one sex behavior or bisexual behavior two sex behavior. if we are one-sex homosexual we date the 'other' sex we are aligned with. if we are female and align with male we date male. if we are female and align with female then we are term 'lesbian' but it is still of 'one sexuality' prefference, if male aligned with male you are 'gay' but still one sexuality, male aligned with female dates female. this is what i CAN say. you can view this any way YOU CHOOSE to view it, and take it as you CHOOSE to take it but part of it, will resonate with you, within us- or I-, and you will know SOMETHING in this is true... you may not know to what extent. but something is.

this is not to say that you should realize you are ascending an then stop looking for the truth just because you know deep down you know what it is, still search still grow and become one within unity of peace dont look for the peace you want create it, be it, as they say fake it til you make it

for it is the same with cages. we instill fear into our children to reform an act as we want them as we think they should act if they are loud noisy mean or rebellious they are 'wrong' or 'bad' what is wrong or bad? rape, murder, suffering... yes i would agree they are what i consider 'negative' things to experience but once you get past the 'experience' you see the lesson, there is no physical manifestation of the lesson except the experince so if it was always pleasant would be learn the lesson? no we would not pay attention to it like we need to in order to grow to learn to fulfill our purpose. that is why we have evil, bad, negative if you must. it is to balance the light the 'good' we feel. there is no good or bad, heaven & hell, right or left, they are only duality. polarized opposites that we must let go of to move beyond things. you can say to yourself, how can she say this, she doesnt know the pain of starvation, the thirst of dehydration, the malnurtition and disease that the planet harbors. i tell you now, i do. i know. and yes i even know the feeling of being raped. it not a pleasant feeling by no means, i would say that i cannot likin it to anything pleasant to anything that can be viewed positive as this has always been my outlook, however, in retrospect, everything that happens to us, even as an infant we predetermine before entering this incarnation and wanted to learn these lessons. so why should we set cages and trap ourselves inthis demension when we should really be allowing everyone to do anything and everything. im not saying we should all go kill someone, some of us need not DO anything to understand this concept i am speaking of, as it is within us all but some will say i dont understand this, and those must wait until they are 'activated' when it is time. if you were meant to wake up rightnow in this lifetime. then rest assured you are already doing so.

well so many numerical and other sychronicities that i cannot include even a partial list in this message however i am going to write afew things about how my thoughts have changed. i have no longer felt the need to keep 'cages' on the mind, this meansi have released the Fear, the only 2 yes 2 emotions we truly experience what it boils down to is Fear and Love and the cabal, the gov, the malevolent ets, they are the ones that are instituting fear into us to not explore to not look within us for the answers. you need not use the internet nor any technological means to check these answers you can simply look within an wait until you feel it is truth, research look up and think what it is you feel. do you feel repulsed by religion or what the current view of most 'politics' are seem obsurd to you, then you should keep looking there is so much to be looked into and we must let go of positive and negative let go of cages let go of the 'sanctity of marriage' yes it is sacred but y limit urself to only brushing ur hair when you should brush your teeth too an also wash the toxins from your skin?

just had to post that at 1222 i got a post from my best friend *A* when talking to her about the numbers 1,2,and 3, popping up and 111,222,333, etc :)

hmmm. very, high vibrational night with the venus transit working well and the update of Isis getting her crown back :) woot! woot! LOL <3 have to make this quick, still having a LOT of 22s, as well as 11s, triple numbers triple everything & doubles of 2 sets, like 1122, 1133, 1221, 1111, 222, etc all the time. if its not pairs or a triple set its 1234 234 345 or the other way 654 543 etc. anyway i will have to post more later... have used up my 3 minutes. lol

so I have been doing some reading today, after a very busy day of socializing and entertaining others with the Light energies, as well as speaking with a friend whos providing me an oppertunity to host 3 Angels (Light beings). I have been able to find ma y article covering many topics, ALL i have asked questions about and have received 'answers' via going to the site(s) [theres afew i use to get information regularly from] and the main feed of whichever site i feel compelled to click on i find an article in the feed! its amazing.

also its amazing how I can search in5d for hours and read articles and find things that link with what I have found out via meditation and connection with the Creator, then not find anything that  'seems fit' for the time and my search ends then another time I will do the same and for hours 1 article leads me to the next and so on, etc etc, until I end reading one and say ok and then switch as if Id only read one article or had an aloted set to read.... I, almost always, am thinking of what I research before I go to the site and I very rarely (only if an article leads to direct questions not answered by the next article) do I ever have to search the site for information, the articles I go to 'look' for are in the main feeds, tho some are recent and some date back years.. (plus external links to source data date back to the 1980's website links)..... New information all the time!


well need to do afew things will try to write later. had a fun night lastnight. interesting reading... i will update later, well. i will do the copy/past now and edit later...lol


wrote this earlier in a rush before leaving havent had time to even look back and read it, lol not sure what all i wrote, i posted it straight to my facebook profile so yeah, it was odd. lol. but cool.

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Light and The Ascension of Earth into the 4th, 5th, 6th, (and beyond) Demensions, is what is most on my mind as i meditate and Reconnect as One with the Nature and Truths of Each Religion while weeding out the lies and fears instilled upon us by the dark Cabal of our society. i hereby declare i FORGIVE those who have hurt me in this life because it was planned wel before we met here on Earth and no matter who you are we will meet again after this life, as we have co-created our life events before ever coming to be in this life, so i THANK YOU for helping me understand one of my many life lessons, as no matter if someone is entering our lives for a reason, season, or lifetime they are teaching us a lesson we have asked them to show us, it is only a personal matter of searching internally fo...r what the lesson is and if you are done experiencing the lesson enough to have learned it well enough to move beyond it? you may stay tramped in the 3rd demensional reality if you wish, this is your choice and i cannot nor wll not, as it is not my right to dually influence your free will. Simply as an ambassador of the Light I wish to share your many choices with you... so many of you are not aware of or honestly do not know the works in progress here on Gaia! (Mother Earth) The cities within her, the beauty and wonder she will be restored to. The many thousands of Galactic Light Beings that are here, on Gaia and within her atmosphere in thousands and thousands of crafts awaiting for the time they may walk in plain view of us all, simply to help us, as they have everything they could ever want already, so why would they want what little we have?...It is illogical to even entertain the thought really ♥ will you search for the truth and begin readying yourself for ascension? ♥ will you CHOOSE to move beyond the 3rd demensional limiting emotions of FEAR, ANGER, SADNESS, GUILT, SHAME, BLAME, LIES, and all NEGATIVITY...??? ♥ For it is time. NOW is the time to step up and awaken dear Sisters and Brothers, there is so much you are blindfolded from, help me lift your blindfold---you may take as much or as little of the information i can offer you as you want to as truth and what you wish to discard as theory until you see actual physical proof in front of your eyes, even then many will refuse to accept the truth for now. It is expected after so manys eons of being blindfolded and enslaved by the Cabal... They wont be here very long now, the countdown is on dear ones... It is time to see the LIGHT again and remember WHO YOU ARE... remember... search inside and REMEMBER why you are here in this physical plane, on Gaia, as a human, what is the true purpose of your being here? .... you may ask Jesus (Sananda) Archangel Micheal Ashtar God Goddess Alah Buddha Ghandi, whatever Higher Power you have in your life NOW, turn to, ask them for guidance to open your eyes and invite them to help you... THEY can NOT help if you do not MEANINGFULLY INVITE them.. you have free will, they will NEVER over step that.. but if you want the BENEFITS if you want to serve YOUR Higher Self, and return to your close connection with the universe, becoming enlightened and opening up your DNA to tap you potential and learn Telepathy (yes its true, i can, my son can, my friends, my ANIMALS -yes even my animals- they tell me i ask a yes or no question then they bark once for yes twice for no, i had to set a system to 'check' so i knew i wasnt crazy lol its OK to be skeptical!! lol i was, am on anything not fully researched still, but i have checked my sources checked my answers and i always look only after having some information thru meditation and asking through telepathy, then i simply search a certain line and bam afew articles (some dated back to the early 90s and before 1990 too - i wasnt even born then! how could i 'make' that up?! ) theres always lots of new info but there is SO much from years and years and decades and thousands of EONS ago... backing everything up... before 'school' 'religion' 'politics' before Earth... you just have to remember it... ask for answers you are ready for ... but be prepared.. ITS AMAZING! (to continue the list of abilities that *after ascension* may acquire; Animal SPeaking, Enhanced Empathy, Inter-demensionial Perception, Clairesentience, Levitation, Dream walking, Premonitions, Astral Projection, Telepathy, IQ, Precognitive Dreams, eternal youth, Tele-Viewing, Cryokinesos, Intangibility, Chronokinesis, Heightened Intuition, hydrokinesis, Pyrokinesis, Force Feilds, Biokinesis, Psychometry, telekinesis, Bi-location, Flight, Teleportation, Quickl Healing, No illnesses, Mind Reading, illusory telepathy, Aura Seeing, electrokensis, Plant SpeakingHeaightened Dexterity, Indestructablility, time traveling, technokinesis, invisibility, remote viewing, ...............we are evolving and our DNA is changing ............. will edit later as no time for further communications now--- (edit for english clarification and grammatical errors of the english language)

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still havent read it, lol, will update later. lol. <3

Very interesting few days. I have been having the number 22 pop up still. and also had afew AH HA! moments too. The first major ah ha, is that, I was at the store to get a charm for a friends bracelet (I make jewelry as an art therapy) and i noticed they were doing a lot of clearance and changing beads around so i wanted to get the other charms i needed before they were gone, i got the thought to get two 2's to make a 22 item of jewelry to wear. looked and there was only one 2, kinda went owel then looked up an in the wrong spot was another 2. the last 2 2's and i found them at sppur of the moment timing & thoughts, (after searching for the charm i HAD to get for over a half hour (maybe not but felt like it, they moved them on me! lol))... Anyway so that was kind of funny.

Now on to the other Ah Ha; went to my cousin A's house (same name as my son A) lol... had a nice fmaily bbq and enjoyed time together, realized that the day my son A turns 22 months, will be on the 11th of (given month) the same day I begin hosting 3 Angels for one week. WOW. ok and I hadnt been able to post anything lastnight as i was in too much pain and have been trying to rest and so i was very tired and just fell asleep. LOL anyway was thinking of this all today at the grocery store and then the total came up, it was all groceries, except some incense, they were 10/$1 so i was going to grab $2 so i could have some variety for this upcoming event im planning, there were 2 or 3 other kinds i liked still so i ended up with 25, this came to $2.50, after I paid for all my groceries.

lol will edit this later but have to run to the store & its 222 LOL



.................. well its 6:35 now... had even more 2's pop up today :) not sure what else to write so i will have to start a new post later <3 LOVE